Sunday, November 24, 2019

2019 read #21: Resurrection of the Wild by Deborah Fleming.

Resurrection of the Wild: Meditations on Ohio's Natural Landscape by Deborah Fleming
182 pages
Published 2019
Read from November 19 to November 24
Rating: 3.5 out of 5

With a title like that, I expected this book to focus on a subject dear to my heart: the restoration and rewilding of landscapes and waterscapes. It turned out to be a series of essays, some published as long ago as 2000, all of them only vaguely connected by the book's subtitle. The overall theme is not rewilding so much as attempts to create a sustainable relationship between human beings and the natural world we dwell in. There are pocket biographies of John Chapman ("Johnny Appleseed") and sustainable farming innovator Louis Bromfield; there's an examination of how problematic and coercive Amish communities can be, followed without apparent irony by a wistful account of a young family building a counterculture homestead in the 1970s. Like a Midwestern answer to Roger Deakin's descriptions of Walnut Tree Farm, Fleming devotes a chapter to humble-bragging about the history and bucolic charms of her own farm, Wedding Pines.

Much of the rest of the book examines just how thoroughly factory farms, subdivision developments, strip mining, and horizontal fracking have destroyed the land, the soil, the water, the air, the landscape, human health, the natural world, and the future. "I did not think the human race worth saving," she remarks during a tangent about the missionaries who barge onto her farm. Far from resurrection, the impression Fleming leaves is one of defeat and erosion—the loss of our liberties to the wealthy few who keep county commissioners and state agencies in their pockets, a feeling of futility as urban sprawl devours more and more of the land. I've grown to appreciate and love the natural world of Ohio during these ten months of living here, which makes this book all the more depressing.

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

2019 read #20: Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata.

Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata
Translated by Ginny Tapley Takemori
163 pages
Published 2016 (English translation published 2018)
Read from November 18 to November 19
Rating: 4 out of 5

Alternately hilarious and infuriating, Convenience Store Woman examines the dysfunctions and dissociations of late capitalist society from the viewpoint of someone who feels happiest as an efficient cog within the machinery of a convenience store. Keiko Furukura has never been able to process social cues or understand people's expectations. Work at a convenience store provides her with a literal manual of how to behave and perform her duties, instructions she adheres to with gusto. Social expectations pressure Keiko: Date! Quit your go-nowhere job and pursue a career! Marry and raise a family! Happy in the convenience store, satisfied with a role she understands, Keiko wonders if she should be doing more to conform to the social role others seem to expect of her, that of a "human woman" instead of a reliable convenience store worker—concerns that reach a desperate level just as she crosses paths with a petulant, sniveling manbaby of an InCel.

Shiraha whines about how society hasn't changed since the Stone Age, how the best hunters still get the prettiest girls, how the village will chase you out if you don't conform—and how men have it so much worse than women. He is one of the most infuriating characters I can remember from any of my recent reads, so vividly realized that I wanted to wring his neck every time I turned the page.

Shiraha serves as a sort of warped mirror to Keiko's own inability to satisfy the social expectations of those around her. Keiko has no trouble seeing Shiraha's bullshit for what it is, for the most part, but sees bits of truth in his tantrums. My own reading is that both characters are reacting to the malaise of capitalist culture in different ways, neither one of them understanding the structural dysfunctions underlying their respective inability to "fit in." While Shiraha becomes a self-pitying grifter who bewails his constant victimhood, Keiko realizes of her own sister, "She's far happier thinking her sister is normal, even if she has a lot of problems, than she is having an abnormal sister for whom everything is fine."

Convenience Store Woman is a brief and breezy little novel that packs in so much insight into modern human life within its short length.

Monday, November 18, 2019

2019 read #19: The Last of the Wine by Mary Renault.

The Last of the Wine by Mary Renault
447 pages
Published 1956
Read from September 14 to September 18
Rating: 4 out of 5

As a kid, first reading my older brother's social studies textbook and then branching out into history books scavenged from wholesaler warehouse sales, I idolized Athens. I felt proud of their democracy, even though I had absolutely no connection to it. I felt prouder still when, in summaries of the Peloponnesian War, Athens made temporary headway against those Spartan louts; I felt corresponding grief when Athens' fortunes turned.

Western Europeans have loved to claim cultural continuity with Rome ever since the Dark Ages, and with ancient Greece ever since the Renaissance. This is a long-standing cultural myth. There is no neat progression of one culture feeding into another, no diffusion of cultural "light" from one cradle of civilization to another. Western Europe was always a cultural backwater, and the only continuity is what they appropriated for themselves after discovering classic Greek writings when they fought against Greece's true cultural heirs (at least in terms of mathematics and philosophy) during the Crusades. America's Founding Fathers certainly bought into this myth, adding further legends of America's inheritance from republican Rome and democratic Athens. Perhaps that's why I championed that middle-school textbook version of Athens as a kid; printed around the end of the Cold War, my brother's textbook no doubt laid the propaganda on thick.

As an adult, I've developed a better understanding of just how ghastly and horrible republican Rome and democratic Athens were, and how they truly presaged the ghastly and horrible first two centuries of the American experiment. Athenian men discoursed on the meanings of freedom, human goodness, and good government, all while owning slaves, invading and genociding rival city-states for economic gain, and regarding women and children as essentially livestock, subject to the whims of their male heads of household. It's hard, really, to tell any difference between them and the framers of the Constitution. To this day, maintained as propaganda for America's forever-wars in Southwest Asia, we cling to this myth of Greece (read: conservative White Europeans and Americans) as a bastion of liberty and personal freedom fighting for survival against the despotism of "the East" (read: Islam, Jews, brown people, homosexuals—somehow all conflated into an all-encompassing Other that HATES OUR FREEDOMS). If you see a decal of a Corinthian helmet on someone's car, odds are they're a white supremacist on some level, someone who embraced the symbology of 300 as it metastasized throughout right-wing America.

The Last of the Wine was one of the first books mentioned when I asked for recommendations after getting my library card in 2012. (I forget who suggested it—it was over seven years ago, somehow.) Though published in 1956, it explores this tension between the high-minded ideals of Athenian philosophy and the ugly reality of its cultural norms. It tells a beautiful love story between two men who are drawn into the philosophical circle around Sokrates, while demonstrating that the cultural celebration of male love (as in many martial, patriarchal societies) was built upon a foundation of utterly nauseating, literally dehumanizing misogyny. Its two noble heroes become staunch democrats and fight against tyrants and oligarchs for almost a decade, yet their philosophical high-mindedness is only possible thanks to their vast privilege of wealth, status, and gender affording them leisure and education. One could write a library of dissertations dissecting the intersectionality of these characters and Renault's vividly realized Attica. The parallels between Sokrates' Athens and the conservative myth of America, whether intended by the author or not, were impossible to ignore.

All that said, I adore this book. The story is poignantly told, rich with eroticism and devotion, bitter with jealousy and generation upon generation of trauma. I started reading it after all this time after seeing it name-checked in Jo Walton's Among Others (which I partially reread recently, after encouraging my partner to read it); fittingly, The Last of the Wine stirred my deeply buried urge to write. The sweep of its historical setting, the antique dialogue nonetheless sparkling with personality and cadence, the interplay of love and war—it all made me want to write fantasy stories, and helped me to understand why so much fantasy fiction before the 1980s (and continuing on to today, if The Priory of the Orange Tree is any indication) seemed to borrow so much from the trappings of historical fiction. In brief: I want to write something that captures the feel of this book, without having to do all that labor-intensive research first.

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

2019 read #18: A Particular Kind of Black Man by Tope Folarin.

A Particular Kind of Black Man by Tope Folarin
262 pages
Published 2019
Read from November 1 to November 13
Rating: 4 out of 5

This book was an emotionally draining read, but not for the reasons I expected. Going into it blind, without having read the jacket summary, I envisioned a brutal tearjerker about racism in America and the violence of the police state, assuming (in my white liberal ignorance) that every Black story in 2019 would be akin to The Hate U Give. Instead, while racism in America very much played a role in the tale, A Particular Kind of Black Man dealt with themes of family and identity, of mental illness and heredity, of coping with loss by editing the past—all things painfully personal and relatable for me.

It says something about my own internalized racism, absorbed from my upbringing and still visible even in my attempts to become a decent person, that I wasn't prepared to relate so strongly to a Nigerian American's fictional narrative. That's an embarrassing fact to have to admit to. I grew up with a schizophrenic parent; I was abandoned by my own mother at a young age; I've sabotaged relationships through my own insecurity. Turning each page was a challenge because of how deeply I cringed at Tunde's social self-destruction. I knew his story all too well; I didn't want to see it happen again, no matter how fictionalized.

I feel embarrassed for expecting a thunderous rebuke of state violence instead of a narrative with its own fully realized ends. I feel ashamed of how little Black fiction I've read. Owning up to it is one step forward, I hope: reading more is another.